It’s one month since Indian Country Today Media Network unexpectedly went on hiatus and ceased active operations. I’m in trouble. Most frustrations I have are not unique even as a multiply-disabled doubly neurodiverse Nanticoke and Lenni-Lenape Native American WOC, but they are humiliating.
https://storify.com/MochaLisaccino/crisis-point
Another day ending in y where I tackle ableism. Plus, my perspective as a Housebound #disabledWOC on the latest round of ‘Hashtag Activism” bashing.
When not being summarily ignored and erased, WOC on Twitter discussing Depression and other forms of Neurodiversity and Disabilities are routinely shamed for not being the “strong” women we are stereotyped as by WP and other POC. *ANGER AS AN INDICATOR OF DISTRESS* is never considered.
Source: “What is a Blood Quantum Nazi” – authormiafisher.blogspot.co.uk
It’s #NativeAmericanMonth #NativeAmericanHeritageMonth & we need to talk about Anti-Black #racism & #colorism in NDN Country.
So I did along with other related issues including racism in disability activism.
Jason Arnopp @JasonArnopp (Author, scriptwriter. Doctor Who, Sarah Jane, Friday 13th) is working on a book regarding professional (Fiction) writers and Depression. He asked me to contribute. This is what I had to say…
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A well-meaning new-found long-lost relative decided to comment on my NaNoWriMo 2011 Facebook entry referring to my struggles to participate because of Major Depression: “truth is I’m strategic…” she wrote. “…the goal is achievable you have to trust yourself to make it happen.” Her sentiments are typical of the simple-minded inspiration porn that I am forced to put up with routinely. My response is always that I do what I can, when I can, but unfortunately more often than not it means struggling immensely to do not very much at all. I give myself pep talks and formulate strategies to try and be productive to no avail.
The greatest irony for me as a writer living with Depression has always been that I get my best ideas and am the most prolific when in a severe down-swing. I find that writing fiction, even Harry Potter fan fiction, is therapeutic in a way that Cognitive Behavioural Therapy has never been for me. I even managed to put this into one of my stories with a fan fiction-writing protagonist who proposed that “sometimes fiction serves a purpose in enabling people to live out their fantasies, purge their own demons or perhaps set a standard for themselves. It was only when people confused fantasy with reality that there was a problem.”Self-insertion? I won’t deny it. I’ve learned an awful lot about myself and my illness through writing and making use of my own lived experience (especially post-diagnosis in 2009). This in turn informs others including those who live with it – something still sorely needed to combat the stigma of mental illness. I would also agree that I lose myself in the gloriousness of creation process. This is even more pronounced during manic cycles of insomnia. Perhaps that’s why I have so many epic tales that remain unfinished after starting them nearly a decade ago and have failed to live up to the potential I’ve been told that I have. Depression has impacted every aspect of my life for good or ill, and my interests and ambitions as a professional writer are no exception.
Lisa J. Ellwood
@CreativeCrip (Social Justice, Mental Illness, Disability)
https://thecreativecrip.wordpress.com/
@IconicImagery (Professional Writing & Communications account)
http://iconicimagery.wordpress.com/
http://www.fanfiction.net/u/598860/NativeMoon (Fan Fiction Writing)
#NaNoWriMo 2011 (#disability #spoonie #mentalhealth) – #amwriting (thecreativecrip.wordpress.com
#NaNoWriMo – Day 2: Not #fitforwork or anything else… (thecreativecrip.wordpress.com
@CreativeCrip in the media: #xmasathome #nyeathome interview GRAZIA Australia (thecreativecrip.wordpress.com
NEW at thecreativecrip.com
I was interviewed recently for Grazia Australia regarding the #xmasathome #nyeathome Twitter campaign for people who are alone during the Holidays. Writer/Editor Vanessa Lawrence (@NessLawrence) gave me a great Christmas present in the form of a PDF of the final article as it appeared in print.
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I was interviewed recently for Grazia Australia regarding the #xmasathome #nyeathome Twitter campaign for people who are alone at Chistmas.
What Jay Smooth says in this vlog from 2009 sums up my general attitude about the Holidays perfectly.
I’m always alone and attempted suicide Christmas 2009.
Last year marked the first of what is turning out to be an annual Twitter event in supporting those of us who are either literally alone for the Holidays or feel isolated for whatever reason. Started by @prestontowers of prestoninstitute.com, I tweeted #xmasathome #nyeathome 2011 support as @Creative Crip and blogged here about it.
New Year’s Eve was a bigger effort. Not onlydid I blog here (a few times in fact), I also did a feature on my latent Crip Island Posterous Blog replete with photos taken in-world during my own corresponding #VirtualNYE campaign event in the virtual world (aka metaverse) Second Life linked into a Google Hangout celebrating the new year as it was rung in across the globe.
Yesterday I woke up to the bitter reality of my @Creative Crip account being suspended without warning yet again. At first I decided to not bother, simply because of the significance of the @CreativeCrip identity to me and to others who rely on me for support. My mind was changed by sleeping on it and getting a few tweets from my followers. I was reminded of how many people look to me as a source of strength online despite my own fragility. I prefer to keep my Twitter activity compartmentalised, but when it comes to something like #xmasathome #nyeathome #virtualnye, keeping an eye on the bigger picture is vital.
So this year I’ll be tweeting support from @IconicImagery, the account for my Marketing Communications business and my new @GamerFems project (gaming, metaverse, feminism and all manner of geekery). I’ll also have another post or two about #VirtualNYE 2012-2013 in the next few days. The support is the thing that matters regardless of which account it comes from. So let it be written, so let it be done.
That’s how I roll.
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“Be careful who you follow because you never know where they will lead you”
~Mark Hancock, “Third Wave (Experiment)” Student
So… the third party who brought me into what is obviously a bogus situation and who couldn’t be arsed to reply to me on Friday now has this to say about my blog relating the details of my suspension:
“I dont even know why I am answering such silly nonsense. THis just nonsense. The _____*whose ID I have temporarily forgotten) is someone I like talking to.
@creativecrip is not. I blocked. “
O really?!!
That is QUITE the change from Friday where she happily tweeted my @CreativeCrip account, castigating him as an idiot and relating the woeful tale of him getting his followers to gang up on her (which others have seen, by the way thanks to searching my ID).
Funny that she’s tweeted a link to my blog calling me out – and has now protected her Twitter account!
Being a liar and a hypocrite aside, what can she possibly be afraid of?
