I became Homeless in early 2004.
This is what I had to say about it – again.
AND: Im with a Primary Care Mental Health Team. No changing staff like the old Community Mental Health Team. This Specialist is said to be the best in my area. They will be looking at Bipolar too instead of the Major Depression diagnosis I currently have (manic episodes are contradicting that and the 200mg Sertraline daily does nothing for them).
The Disability / Mental Health Assessor said it was vitally important to look at & treat the WHOLE person rather than looking at everything piecemeal. In her opinion the reason why CBT FAILED is because no one has considered anything but Major Depression and/or me being a hypochondriac when I have other health problems that are well-documented. She also couldn’t believe that no one I’d seen so far in last 3-4 years didn’t think to ask ME what *I* thought about my disabilities / problems! She said flat-out that CBT isn’t the cure-all for everything & especially for people with complex disability & illness.
If I am an Aspie – then other health issues could be sorted out simply by addressing that – CBT won’t help me.
|Total score||Language||Social relatedness||Sensory/motor||Circumscribed interests|
|Test taken by you on 10 June 2013||207.0||19.0||104.0||48.0||36.0|
|Test taken by you on 31 July 2013||210.0||21.0||93.0||57.0||39.0|
|Your average score is||208.5||20.0||98.5||52.5||37.5|
|Threshold values for suspected ASD||65.0||4.0||31.0||16.0||15.0|
|The average score for males with ASD (368 people took this test)||140.8||11.1||69.8||33.5||26.5|
|The average score for females with ASD (228 people took this test)||165.0||13.1||77.7||42.5||31.7|
|The average score for males with suspected ASD (1591 people took this test)||146.9||11.3||75.4||32.7||27.6|
|The average score for females with suspected ASD (1560 people took this test)||152.0||11.5||74.0||37.1||29.4|
|The average score for male neurotypicals (505 people took this test)||83.8||6.6||44.7||17.2||15.2|
|The average score for female neurotypicals (615 people took this test)||77.1||5.2||38.9||18.9||14.1|
If you wish to find out more about this test you can read the original research paper here
It is with regret that I am having to close down my self-hosted WordPress site thecreativecrip.com and revert to my old site which I continued to maintain at thecreativecrip.wordpress.com as a backup. Thank you to all my thecreativecrip.com readers for their support and I hope you will subscribe there. One of the perks of doing this is that it will be easy for others to share my work and re-blog through the WordPress.com platform itself.
I’ve had problems with my US-based web host, intrahost.com, for almost a year now after three years of outstanding service. It appears that the man behind the venture, Greg Kuiper, doesn’t care about his business now that he has a cushy job with popular hosting control panel techies cPanel. Paid invoices remain unprocessed yet I keep getting new ones charging me for “Parking Fees” and the same things that I’ve already paid for. At last check the total of nefarious charges was almost at $300. Domain renewals were not taken care of, which I and the few clients I had have to pay the consequences for. Help Desk tickets have gone unanswered for MONTHS. affiliate earnings remain locked in my account which I can no longer access as the intrahost.com website went offline a few weeks ago never to return. The Facebook Page has disappeared a while ago – or perhaps I was blocked from it for raising flags about web outtages that lasted more than a day with no action or notice by Intrahost. Greg is even a Facebook Friend (Ha!) – but ignores me at every turn now. No more Mister Nice Guy.
On top of all that, neither myself nor my clients are able to get the transfer codes we need to move our active domains elsewhere. My Iconic Imagery business identities and those of The Creative Crip are fortunately listed as being owned by me but I have no control over them at all now. I’m not sure what’s going on because although one domain expired, I’m not able to buy it through another registrar – as it seems to be locked with me still listed as the owner. My web hosting package obviously remains active but in my opinion it would be unwise to carry on making use of it with the owner of the servers having vanished into thin air (in a manner of speaking).
I trusted Greg Kuiper with my business and those of friends and professional connections. For just over 3 years the service was outstanding. I never saw this problem coming – and even transferred domains to Intrahost.com from a popular service I had used for years. Make no mistake, this can happen to anyone at any time and with any web host. There are a lot of one-man bands fronting as larger operations. This most definitely is the case with Intrahost.com. There are also many unscrupulous larger operations. The best anyone can do is research and think critically.
I contacted the Better Business Bureau who are effectively useless. I note that people are starting to complain to them about Intrahost.com but not getting anywhere through the BBB. Now I have to raise the issue with ICANN – and continue to let people know what happened as I try to rebuild.
Regular readers of this blog and followers of the related @CreativeCrip Twitter account might recall in February of this year I rashly pulled myself out of ESA hell in favour of being self-employed. Being honest – I knew at the time that I still wasn’t ready to make such a move. Atos phoning me at home about another WCA was the catalyst. I literally could not face having to deal with them again and was so desperate that taking myself off the merry-go-round seemed like the only thing that would bring some relief.
It’s been touch-and-go ever since, largely because of the appalling lack of support from my old GPs & CMHT Psych Team. As I’ve said before, being a Native American merely Permanently Resident in the UK is not without problems. Every inquiry and appointment turns into an immigration interview – which is not only unnecessary it is quite inappropriate. One of the things that I constantly struggle with in trying to get help is that the professionals I am meant to be dealing with don’t leave their politics and prejudices at home. It’s much the same dealing with engineers from telephone companies, supermarket delivery drivers and neighbours. Everyone has really strong opinions on immigration, benefits and disability and there is no hesitation in imparting their wisdom to me no matter how malicious and ill-informed.
I’ve had to make even more changes in the aftermath of dropping my ESA claim.
Some people say that I have to “fake it until it’s real” and other similar Mindfulness pearls of wisdom along admonishments to “play the game” – both of which go down like a lead-weighted balloon. Being fake just does not compute. I am who I am and what I am is tired… just so very tired of the never-ending fighting for absolutely everything in every part of my life. And I am acutely aware that for every person who might *get* what I’m saying there will be a number of detractors. That’s fine… I can only ever tell the truth – my truth. It’s the same for all of us.
So here I am carrying on doing everything that I am told to do and hoping against all reasonable hope that things will get better.
So… the third party who brought me into what is obviously a bogus situation and who couldn’t be arsed to reply to me on Friday now has this to say about my blog relating the details of my suspension:
“I dont even know why I am answering such silly nonsense. THis just nonsense. The _____*whose ID I have temporarily forgotten) is someone I like talking to.
@creativecrip is not. I blocked. “
That is QUITE the change from Friday where she happily tweeted my @CreativeCrip account, castigating him as an idiot and relating the woeful tale of him getting his followers to gang up on her (which others have seen, by the way thanks to searching my ID).
Funny that she’s tweeted a link to my blog calling me out – and has now protected her Twitter account!
Being a liar and a hypocrite aside, what can she possibly be afraid of?
A few of my Twitter followers have noticed that my @CreativeCrip account has been suspended.
This was unexpected and completely without warning. I am of the opinion that this has occurred because of malicious reporting on the part of adults who find it impossible to either block or ignore those whom they don’t like or disagree with or both. The circumstances are thus:
On 27th September someone I used to follow (but who still appeared in my timeline) said
“Depression doesn’t kill you, you do.”
I retweeted this along with my own comment that I found that assertion to be patronising and unhelpful. The following day he had a go at me – knowing that his rabid followers will immediately act upon any beef that he decides to have with other people. This is what he does – he gets his followers to go after people he doesn’t like or disagrees with.
Someone popped up and had a go at him. She doesn’t even follow me but decided to call him out (to me), saying that he and his followers had attacked her and accused her of being disablist for the observation that “disability is only one aspect of identity”. She had quite a bit to say to him in the main and kept copying me in.
Why I don’t know.
I was in middle of tweeting that she needed to keep me out of her sustained rants at him when my account was suspended.
It was *that* quick.
Mine was the only account suspended. Not hers. Not his.
Fast-forward several hours later. I tweeted the third party moaner from 1 of my 2 business accounts after the @CreativeCrip suspension & said “my @CreativeCrip acct is suspended thanks to the good Rev. In future pls keep me out of your chats w him. Thanks.” No response. She blocked me. I then looked through her timeline and saw that she was making an attempt to cosy up to him again, trying to get back in his good graces. Call me stupid, but there is no way in hell I would ever suck up to anyone who threw me under a bus and in so public and odious a way. Someone has suggested that this could be quite a clever little ploy by both parties – suffice it to say there is nothing that wouldn’t surprise me at this point especially considering who is involved. It’s not the first time something like this has happened on Twitter (or other social media platforms) and it sure won’t be the last.
It’s a funny olde world indeed.
So here I am fighting to get the suspension lifted. I have put too much hard work into @CreativeCrip to simply give up and possible start again: (1) that account has been mention in the Society Daily listings in The Guardian quite a bit and (2) my work through that account and The Broken of Britain also earned me a nod from Left Foot Forward in “Nomination for most influential left-wing thinker: The disabled rights community“
All are noted on my LinkedIn Profile here: uk.linkedin.com/in/iconicimagery
Needless to say – at the moment I feel like I have had enough of Social Media, and Twitter especially.
Just replied to a comment on my blog from a disability campaigner now owning that his focus is on “lifestyle change rather than political change” (I’m one of more than a few people with criticism of the BioPsychoSocial mantras being rammed down our throats).
This is my response:
“Again – lifestyle change for disabled people not born into privilege will not happen without political change.”
Today marks the point of no return for many disabled and ill people. An estimated 40,000 – 100,000 of those in our community who have worked will lose our Contributory Employment Support Allowance (ESA) thanks to the new one year time limit railroaded through Parliament as part of the recent welfare reforms.
I’m one of them. Continue reading