It is with regret that I am having to close down my self-hosted WordPress site thecreativecrip.com and revert to my old site which I continued to maintain at thecreativecrip.wordpress.comas a backup. Thank you to all my thecreativecrip.com readers for their support and I hope you will subscribe there. One of the perks of doing this is that it will be easy for others to share my work and re-blog through the WordPress.com platform itself.
I’ve had problems with my US-based web host, intrahost.com, for almost a year now after three years of outstanding service. It appears that the man behind the venture, Greg Kuiper, doesn’t care about his business now that he has a cushy job with popular hosting control panel techiescPanel. Paid invoices remain unprocessed yet I keep getting new ones charging me for “Parking Fees” and the same things that I’ve already paid for. At last check the total of nefarious charges was almost at $300. Domain renewals were not taken care of, which I and the few clients I had have to pay the consequences for. Help Desk tickets have gone unanswered for MONTHS. affiliate earnings remain locked in my account which I can no longer access as the intrahost.com website went offline a few weeks ago never to return. The Facebook Page has disappeared a while ago – or perhaps I was blocked from it for raising flags about web outtages that lasted more than a day with no action or notice by Intrahost. Greg is even a Facebook Friend (Ha!) – but ignores me at every turn now. No more Mister Nice Guy.
On top of all that, neither myself nor my clients are able to get the transfer codes we need to move our active domains elsewhere. My Iconic Imagery business identities and those of The Creative Crip are fortunately listed as being owned by me but I have no control over them at all now. I’m not sure what’s going on because although one domain expired, I’m not able to buy it through another registrar – as it seems to be locked with me still listed as the owner. My web hosting package obviously remains active but in my opinion it would be unwise to carry on making use of it with the owner of the servers having vanished into thin air (in a manner of speaking).
I trusted Greg Kuiper with my business and those of friends and professional connections. For just over 3 years the service was outstanding. I never saw this problem coming – and even transferred domains to Intrahost.com from a popular service I had used for years. Make no mistake, this can happen to anyone at any time and with any web host. There are a lot of one-man bands fronting as larger operations. This most definitely is the case with Intrahost.com. There are also many unscrupulous larger operations. The best anyone can do is research and think critically.
I contacted the Better Business Bureau who are effectively useless. I note that people are starting to complain to them about Intrahost.com but not getting anywhere through the BBB. Now I have to raise the issue with ICANN – and continue to let people know what happened as I try to rebuild.
Regular readers of this blog and followers of the related @CreativeCrip Twitter account might recall in February of this year I rashly pulled myself out of ESA hell in favour of being self-employed. Being honest – I knew at the time that I still wasn’t ready to make such a move. Atos phoning me at home about another WCA was the catalyst. I literally could not face having to deal with them again and was so desperate that taking myself off the merry-go-round seemed like the only thing that would bring some relief.
It’s been touch-and-go ever since, largely because of the appalling lack of support from my old GPs & CMHT Psych Team. As I’ve said before, being a Native American merely Permanently Resident in the UK is not without problems. Every inquiry and appointment turns into an immigration interview – which is not only unnecessary it is quite inappropriate. One of the things that I constantly struggle with in trying to get help is that the professionals I am meant to be dealing with don’t leave their politics and prejudices at home. It’s much the same dealing with engineers from telephone companies, supermarket delivery drivers and neighbours. Everyone has really strong opinions on immigration, benefits and disability and there is no hesitation in imparting their wisdom to me no matter how malicious and ill-informed.
I’ve had to make even more changes in the aftermath of dropping my ESA claim.
My finances were in such a dire state that I had to borrow money to be able to move house and secure it by paying six months up front. There is no feeling of failure quite like crying to your mother at the ripe old age of 46 and having her cash in some of her pension to bail you out.
Instead of the accessible ground floor flat that cost £650/mo (downgraded from another ground floor flat that was £800/mo) in Cardiff, I am now living in an old split-level miner’s cottage in the Valleys that is nowhere near being disabled-friendly. It only costs £375/mo – great for someone with very low income. Accessible bungalows and ground floor flats come at a premium I simply cannot afford having already exhausted my redundancy on paying the mortgages of other people.
I need to find a new GP and essentially start all over again, hoping that I’ll get the support and referrals I need to manage my complex health needs. I haven’t found the courage to actually get myself out of the house to do this – and October marks three months living here.
When I moved house this past July I hadn’t seen my old GPs in over a year – our relationship was *that* adversarial. I just couldn’t cope with having to deal with them again knowing that, quite frankly, they really didn’t give a shit what happened to me as reflected in their attitude every step of the way.
The meds I need I haven’t had for some time now so of course my mood and manner are more down than slightly down (I’ve never been an “up” person and never will be). Having said that – there is a difference between Clinical Depression and just being in a foul mood. I am at least astute enough to recognise which is which in myself., but of course not having effective treatment for the Clinical Depression doesn’t help. I had been on 200gm of Sertraline a day but hypersomnia won out. The fact is that the Clinical Depression *is* really kicking my tail in every way, shape and form.
It seems that I may be an undiagnosed Aspie (and the results of Simon Baron Cohen’s online test support this along with some others) – but unfortunately before anything could be explored on that basis the old CMHT changed Psychiatrists, which they did every few months it seemed. I also missed a lot of appointments because I could not make them for physical or financial reasons or both. Making appointments three months in advance was never going to work. I also begged the CMHT to allow me to have phone conferences. This was laughed at…why I don’t know.
I have now been on a list to see a spinal surgeon for over two years. Every time I contacted the hospital they were annoyed and told me they would get back to me. Now that I’ve moved house I will have to get a new referral.
I am also overdue for knee surgery and this has severely impacted my mobility. Again I will have to get a new referral thanks to the house move.
I am angry about my situation and who I am because of it all the time… and no matter what I try it just doesn’t subside. As I’ve said before, all I’ve ever asked for is the help and support I need to get back to having a somewhat productive life. I’m not the only one in such a predicament but it astounds me still that politicians from all three major UK parties have strong opinions about disabled people and work, yet they seem to go out of their way to make things as difficult and inhumane as possible for us. Everything from Disability Living Allowance to Access To Work to Working Tax Credits is such a nightmare to navigate and especially for anyone who is completely alone.
Today marks the point of no return for many disabled and ill people. An estimated 40,000 – 100,000 of those in our community who have worked will lose our Contributory Employment Support Allowance (ESA) thanks to the new one year time limit railroaded through Parliament as part of the recent welfare reforms.
If you are part of the Hardest Hit / Care and Support Alliances, send your members the details. This is a great way for those unable to attend protests to add their voices to the many others raised in anger. Request your staff to sign.
Just published my first Twitter-based Storify “After #ATOS Calls: Mental Health Meltdown”.
I’ve decided to carry on doing these as long as the DisabilityUK Community is under threat. Please share your #ukmh#mhuk stories and opinions with me via Twitter for next ones. Use as many Tweets as you need. Continue reading →
The Card is JUDGEMENT (Celtic Cross, Lesson position):
“MEANING of POSITION
The card in the Lesson position points to a possible sacrifice you might have to make for the sake of business success.
You have made progress, gleaning some understanding and wisdom from your efforts to succeed in business. The card in the Lesson position points to a remaining issue that holds educational value for you, or to some sacrifice you still need to make for the sake of fulfilling your goals. You may have to let go of something you like, for the sake of balance in your plan.
Stubbornness or selfishness in this regard could cost you.
It is crucial to acknowledge the value of your work experience for the sake of your financial success.No matter how difficult it may be, make sure to honor what you are currently learning as you do you reaffirm your commitment to developing your skills and growing in your ability to contribute.
Personal investment is called for in order to derive the full benefits from the business you conduct in the world. “
I find it hard to believe that I should sacrifice my creative and technical skills for a McJob that pays less than minimum wage. As I said in my previous post – Workfare is not (and should not be) an option for me. Seems the Great Spirit agrees.